Cut out all the ropes and let me fall

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Sat, 18 May 2013 19:04:03 -0400

smokeporch: Drama-Free

Sat, 18 May 2013 19:02:50 -0400

smokeporch:

Drama-Free

I'm really sorry you have to suffer agoraphobia. It sounds really, really difficult and I just wanted to let you know that even though we don't know each other, I'm really proud of you for making it through each day, because just making it through the day is a significant achievement. I hope you're able to cope with this holiday situation and even if you end up not going at least you tried and that's enough. I don't really know what I'm trying to say except good luck.

Sat, 18 May 2013 19:01:46 -0400

Thank you, I really appreciate this. I guess I’m just having a bad night, thinking too much. It’s hard not to over-think everything when I’m stuck in the house 24/7.
But thanks so much for this, it really means a lot. X

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Sat, 18 May 2013 18:58:39 -0400

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Sat, 18 May 2013 18:57:44 -0400

oddlyfreakinweird: foster-children: demons: An East German...

Sat, 18 May 2013 18:57:37 -0400

oddlyfreakinweird:

foster-children:

demons:

An East German soldier helping a boy cross the newly formed ‘Berlin Wall,’ 1961.

From what is known, the photograph was taken the day the emerging Wall was put up in August 1961 and the boy was found on the opposite side of the wall from his family. Despite given orders by the East German government to let no one pass, the soldier helped the boy through the barbwire. Near the exact time this photo was taken, it was said that the soldier was seen by his superior officer who immediately detached the soldier from his unit.

Concerning the fate of the soldier, most descriptions that come with photograph say that “no one knows what became of him.”

this makes me tear up so bad

hero.

life-with-technicolor: Robert Pattison -

Sat, 18 May 2013 18:57:28 -0400

life-with-technicolor:

Robert Pattison *-*

till-roses-are-black: +

Sat, 18 May 2013 18:57:20 -0400

till-roses-are-black:

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Sat, 18 May 2013 18:57:15 -0400

fabulouspegasus: Simon Lewis <3 I am so excited to watch...

Sat, 18 May 2013 18:57:08 -0400

fabulouspegasus:

Simon Lewis <3 I am so excited to watch City of Bones! The cast is just amazing ♥

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Sat, 18 May 2013 18:56:12 -0400

Agoraphobia rant.. Sorry.

Sat, 18 May 2013 18:54:15 -0400

Ugh, It’s less than 7 weeks until I have to go on Holiday, I’ve been on my meds for a good three months now and I have seen no change whatsoever, even after upping the dose.. Nothing. I’m still stuck in this house, people keep telling me I need to get out of my comfort zone, what they don’t realise is I am not comfortable anywhere, I am not comfortable inside of my own head, how do I get out of that?

I tried to go out, I decided to just get up and try I decided I’d walk to the shop with my mum which is about 3 minutes down the road, I had a panic attack whilst I was in the shop, I ended up bruising my knuckles because I was nervously tapping them on my phone the whole time. I couldn’t handle being 3 minutes away from my house, with my mum, my safe person. How the fuck am I going to be able to make it to the airport, on the plane, travel thousands of miles, WITHOUT my mum.

Fuck. What the fuck is wrong with me, I know what is medically wrong with me, but what is wrong with my brain that I cannot even start to get better. Why am I like this? Why can’t I just go out? Why can’t I go and sunbathe in my garden like a normal person? Why can’t I go to the shop if I need to grab something we’ve ran out of? Why can’t I just be fucking normal? Why can’t I live?

Seriously contemplating killing myself before this Holiday just so I don’t have to be the stupid let down which I always am, at least then I’ll have a valid reason for not being there. Fuck, I hate this shit so much!!!

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appearr: another one

Sat, 18 May 2013 18:43:36 -0400

appearr:

another one